Friday, July 11, 2008 Y 23:10
Hi this few days I am feeling devastated, downheartened. I had lost confidence in myself and I tend to Cry easily. Didn't know what had happen to me but I just feel that I am such a failure. As there is no more hope in my art grades as I cannot even draw well! I get A2 last year is because of my cloth but was told by Mr sham that my cloth will end up having breaklines. The worried me then just break down into tears. I hugged jyo and had wet her carli... Thanks jyo for lending me a hug!! This all happen on Thursday.
But till today, I am still worried, I want to faster dye my cloth so that there will be less stress for me. Whenever I try to work on my prepartory work, I will feel that " I don't know how to draw, My drawing is Ugly and had a feeling of giving up." But there is always another part of me that urged me to go on. Now, I cried almost everyday, because of art, stress, Os, prelims! It is just like TOO MUCh!! Especially art, 3 more weeks and Mr sham is going to leave. Lots of work must to be done and hand in. I struggled throught every day and night for Art but nothing just tur out right for me. I really hope time could stop.What I draw, I then tear it away as it is really not up to standard.
SPIDERS is making me freak out, Its difficult to colour and develop. Sometimes I thought, I had no talents in ART. Why is this so unfair, Life is never fair thats what I know but I am just jealous and hope I could have such talents so that I will not struggle. But its just seems impossible for me. Art is never a thing that I could handle, I tried very hard to improve myself, again and again but it jus not what I wanted. I aimed a B3 but I think its ridiculous to get it. regret is too late, so I will just try my very best and get it done. I will make sure I could handle it and at least get a B3. No matter what challenges I am going to face, I will just overcome it. I am motivated and will put in lots of effort in it. I vowed that I will never do things by half and give up. I will work hard for it!so friends don't worry about me, I am fine and thanks for consoling me!! Tomorrow, I am dying my cloth, hope everything will be alright ba!!
Tags replied:
Maia ( honey): Ya thanks, I cry because I am disappointed with myself. But now I am fine le will approach you if I need any of your help. Really thanks and hope your leg will be better.
Jyothi: haha now then you know. Nowadays can see that you are really tired so I am telling you this. Studies, work, health which is more important? Health rite, so you better take care of yourself, make sure you had enough sleep EVERYDAY!! If not you will get sick easily OK? Habird??
CheeKiat: Thanks for the consoling. I am better le, and I watched show le. Its really touching, I cried till my eyes very red!!=p Can feel the effort that he made is alot.
