＊Matthew's Baobei＊

Thursday, May 28, 2009 Y 23:37

I know its like about to be 2 mnths since I start poly. Now I seriously think that this course is not what I wanted in my future. I dunt want to be a designer, Artist, photographer and watever...

I really feel stressed, I feel disappointed in the grades I gotten...

I wan to change course now!!!!Hope I can succeed ok? My future really will be ruin if I stay in DVE.I hate my art and I think that my Art is ugly! I cannot compete with others, all this are my weakness. How can I work on my weakness, I think it will make it even more worse... I had no confidence in this course. If I continue, I dunt think I can get into university. This will not fit into my plan of life.

Same situation! Suggestion please thanks=)

Tuesday, May 26, 2009 Y 23:05

Another post here=)Today after my tired work out in Gym, went to meet jun at woodlands. Had our dinner there as usual. Very nice n fruitful hee. Many jokes are crack there, so funi lol. Cannot stop laughing even if we are in the toilet lol.hahahah chou nu ren lol.

For my school work, I am very disappointed for my colour theory grades, feel like redoing the whole journal all over again!Maths quiz today, I left out Q3, its too hard. It carry 8 marks lol. I guess I can only just pass this paper.

Someone is annoying me, I dunt know what to do and say.I am not that cruel or selfish but I really cannot take it. Shuld I endure?But is it worth it? I really dunt know...

I really feel quite down this few days due to my school stuffs...no matter is work or other things else. Jia you to me ba, I am seriously scared, I will explode in front of he/she one day!=(

Thanks for ur suggestions Wei jie, I will think through la. Will inform you if I need ur help=)Cya tml...

Y 07:18

HI BACK AGAIN HERE, Later having a maths Vectors quiz. I seriously hope I could pass with flying colours, I had studied hard since yesterday..Jia you and wish me good luck everyone. Hope the paper this time round will be easier.So as to make sure we don't fail this module!

I got to go school now le, so just wish me all the best. Good luck to all DVE 01 students, strive hard to pass ok? Don't be careless and make silly mistakes. Jia you!!!

Sunday, May 24, 2009 Y 10:13

I am in a dilemma now, can anyone please help me... I just receive an email from the dance company. They told me to wait till next month to the results of release. Its like so bloody long can. I don't like this feeling, wait and wait. It makes me feel frustrated and tired of waiting.

So people, can give me some suggestion. Should I wait or should go join Voice ensemble? I am really afraid that after all the waiting, I am not in again. Really wasting my time la....But If I go join Voice ensemble then at last I get in then how?? I am going crazy!!!!=(

Anyway I went back to school on friday, Miss Ang taught me on vectors...Now I had a better understandings of it le. She also update us with a lot of school news. Like Mr Yap, he went to study le. Then Mr Lim (principal), this is his last year le. And stuffs like that. Its just like maybe half a year that we leave the school, lots of changes had happened....

I really need suggestions for the CCA thingy, so please help mi by tagging in my tagboard and tell me what should I do, Thanks=).

Friday, May 22, 2009 Y 09:56

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Hi all, My design fundamentals thumbnails had finally been approved...Yeah nice one haha. Damn happy, I go there and he just say"ok you can use this!"=)

The audition for dance company is also fun and funny.I don't know whether I will get in anot, must wait for notice through e-mail. I also like ping chang xin leh but I really wish I could get in. If never get in then I have to join voice ensemble le.no choice....

Yesterday, went to zi jun and slack a while and I had my dinner at greenridge.Hee nice food...

Later at 4pm, Going back to Zhenghua, as Miss Ang is teaching me my poly maths there. haha so long never see Miss Ang le, I wonder if she change.^^

on top are some crazy photos taken at Sheryl's macbook!On the top...=)Enjoy!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009 Y 08:46

OMG its today!!! My another audition, is an audition for dance company. So excited but nervous, really hope I can succeed this time, I will try my very best to get in de. Anyway got a new wallet myself, It cost me $15, quite affordable but still heart broke. Like my $$ fly off lol. But anyway thanks wei jie who insist to buy 1 for me.=)

I having a serious flu again, I wonder what nose I have, always flu lol...angry n irritated... Got back my maths test, ya I failed. I gt 7/20. Its a slight fail and its not as bad as I think. But Next week, my aim is to pass the vector test...=)

Today's lesson will be fun ba.My favourite...communications skills! Today will get back our assignment marks, wonder wat will I get??

Now got to go prepare and go school le...People wish megood luck for the audition ba..Loves=)

Sunday, May 17, 2009 Y 22:52

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Hi everyone, I am back..=)

The results for foreign bodies is out, but I am not in. I am not sad seriously, I just treat it as an experience and a process of life. I also decide to choose other cca. I will be going for an audition for Dance company on 20 may le...Really wish I could get in=)

Maths tutorial and lectures are making me mad as usual, too stress for all this to happen. I only know how to do the first question of my homework.

Anyway, apart from school stuffs, today, went cck library with Zi jun.We use our lappy tere, slack n talk to wei jie. Damn funny lol haha This poor little guy lost his thumbdrive so I brought one for him...=)haha

We then had our dinner at fei xiong then headed home. Then I found out that, my wallet is fully torn! Its so dangerous, all my cards almost dropping out la. I need a wallet....I no $$ to buy lol, wat shuld I do?? Despo for wallet here....lol=(

WALLET PLS!!!=(

Friday, May 15, 2009 Y 00:31

My day had been bad, extremely bad! I think I failed my maths test badly..I am serious scared I cannot pass the module then I had to retake it again. I don't want! I am damn pissed off , Fed Up and Tired! I don't understand what lecturers say?How am I suppose to do? Can anybody help mi?NO! I am on my own, its getting really worse, I hate maths, it makes me mad!I had homework given, but I just don't want to even go and see...I Know that I will be stuck!Don't understand why this course in NYP nid maths...

Second thing, design fundamentals! 8 more thumbnails to draw! His standard is really very high, no ones' design had been approved la. Still say mine ugly, bloody hell sia. I really dunt know what to say. I mean u can like encourage or at least tell mi how to improve instead of insulting me..I really can't take it, I almost freak out today in school but I try to bear with the sadness till I get home.

WHy is this happening to US? we are just a bunch of really suay people. This year is really tough for us, taking one step at a time can be difficult. There is still lots of challenges coming up.. I may be able to overcome it just keep telling myself , WO ZUO DE DAO( I can do it!)!!=) Goodluck to us ok...

Anyway, if ur have time go search for 20090513 yu le bai fen bai, really saddening and worried for Luo Xiang, he also suay this year. Jia you, we support u!We trust u forever...=)

Monday, May 11, 2009 Y 23:13

Smile!took usin sumone mac!

Looks abit mature here....
My day...

Met up with Cherin to have breakfast at Mac. We chat and eat at the same time, I had a great time there. We then took Lrt to towards our own destination. I am early today to meet my classmates but May was even earlier. We waited for others and went to school. Today Visual arts presentation was good and its was interesting! I learnt photosjop basics today!

After that Had maths, its was really quite boring. Tomorrow having quiz le must buck up and study hard. After school I walked to MRT station with Jia Hui and Wei Jie, met up with Zi jun tere...All was so funny...

Zi jun and I had dinner at CCK nd headed home after that.. Just now chiong all my colour theory assignments. Its all done now left maths to revise!Jia you!

Counting down to 18/5 still....=)

Saturday, May 9, 2009 Y 21:18

An early wish to all mothers, HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!!=) Thanks mum, for taking very good care of me. Sometimes I will shout at you at the things I don't like that you do but I am not on purpose. Sorry that I always make u angry but I want you to know that I care about u and dad very much and I love you all always. You are always by my side when I am feeling down, like the JAE appeal that I fail..and all kinds of failure that I gone through.I felt really contented with you all around me. Supporting me always no matter what...Lastly, I want to tell u although I can't buy very expensive things for you but I just try my best to choose the best present I think is the best for you! Hope you like it and love ya!=)

My Mothers' day...

I brought a waist tonic for my mum, it cost abt $40 ba. Its quite worth it and it will be perfect. When I pass my mum the gift, she was elated and she keep worrying did I have enough $$ after buying that haha=) dunt worry, I had jus enough for myself.

Went dinner after that treat by my silbings and dad, we ate a delightful meal. There is Prawn, Fish, Tofu, Sotong, Chicken... Damn nice haha...I am damn full=) What a wonderful gathering with my family today, we chat about lots of things and this moment is etched in my heart.

So to all the people out there, don't always complain about how bad ur mum is, think for urself. What she had done to make u here in this world, all the wonderful things she does just to make you feel happy. When she see u smile, she will be happy too. MUM so wei da...=)So on this special day buy something for them...They will think all that they had give in is veri worth!

Anyway my foreign bodies dance audition is a really bad one. Forget steps due to nervous... I sort of give up and I think that I would not get in.=( sad, my route is gone! Nvm la results will be released on 18/5, lets wait ba!

Nowadays, I am always in deep thoughts, lots of things are in my mind. Good and bad all filled my mind. Don't know what happened to me, feel so bad and worried... Emotional too=( Just hope everything will be just fine and not what I imagine...=)

Thursday, May 7, 2009 Y 23:34

Back here...Poly life is getting hard now. Had like 3 assignments all due next week. Having a maths quiz also, damn stress and scared that I will not have enough time. Every minutes counts now..shit sia!

And Tomorro is the day! MY foreign Bodies dance audition, how will it turned out? Will I get in? Can I achieve my dream?OMG cannot imagine...Jia you ba...good luck to me=) will update with ur the outcome...

Now chiongin all my assignments and studying maths, I finished 4 sketches le... But nid hand in 8 so all the best to me. My art seems to have improve haha...so happy! Today presentation in school was a quite a successful one also!cool!

Here wishing all who are going for foreign bodies dance audition... GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST. Including myself=)

Sunday, May 3, 2009 Y 22:53

Yes! I am back...=)

2/5/09

I slacked at home till evening 5 plus and went to cck. I brought a new school bag from Zinc, my previous bag is very heavy due to the materials used.... Now i felt so relief to carry such a light bag haha=)

After that meet kuei lee and went for a movie with Farhan and Jyothi at causeway point. We watch Horsemen at 7:25pm. Overall, it was a nice movie, I cried at the last part as it was quite touching...But I think only I cry ba, too emotional le. After the movie, we took cab back to greenridge and had our dinner. Its just cup noodles...And we headed home after that.Sakina also called up and we chat on the phone....I miss you too Sakina=)see ya soon

Although its a short outing with your , I still feel that its memorable and fun...missing you=(

3/5/09

Today I am learning A maths from Shi jie=) Because I don't understand the topics taught by my lecturer. After shi jie explanation, it gives a clear foundation and finally I learn something in maths!!!Thanks gal!

After studying with Shi min, Shi jie and zi jun at Fajar mac, we went different ways. The "shi's" went home. Left Zi jun and me, we went to plaza and have our dinner. Saw alot of familiar faces like yong da, yi lin, lin xiang, wilna,jamilah... Somemore still saw one guy wearing the same shirt as me ( NYP shirt). Damn pai seh la when we walked pass each other haha...

Upon studying at mac, I also bring my macbook along. Sign in MSN and talk to a person called Wei Jie.(happy?ur name here=)) He is really very lame haha...anyway thanks and must help mi buy ok??=p I will pay u $$ de la, just kidding only...Go get a life! you are too bored=)

Swine flu is getting more serious now le.. So people be careful ok?TAke very good care of urself. Eat less pork ba...Sianx tomorow still nid take temperature=(

TAND ONE MORE THING VERY IMPORTANT: STOP SUANING ME ABOUT THE LUO ZHI XIANG NEWS...I AM GOING CRAZY! I HAD EXPLAINED LIKE THOUSAND OVER TIMES FOR HIM...LIKE MY NEWS LIKE THAT SIA!AIYO!=(FED UP!! ITS NT HIS FAULT, HE IS INNOCEN!!HE IS STILL THE BEST!HE IS NOT PLAYBOY, HE IS THE BEST...