Tuesday, August 19, 2008 Y 19:20
I don't know what to say, as feelings are difficult to pharse in words. I am in a depression, as my prelim eng got an E8. Alot of the ppl say that "it is just prelim nvm" But I think this sentence would not cheer me up at all. So what abt my 'o', are you going to tell me that " its just 'o'??" I am devastated, disappointed and downheartened. HOW CAN I IMPROVE? I SERIOUSLY GOT NO IDEA... Friday is my oral and I am the first candidate! I think I am going to make a fool of myself, fear had engulfed me, What is the point of getting all As and Bs but an E8 for english.No poly will want you, at least a D7 is required. Seeing all the passes in the list and all the wonderful marks of other people. I am jealous and I felt that I am so weak... 44/100,=( Felt like breaking down after I know my marks. But today, I holded back my feelings. I seems to be very delightful today but all was a act. The fake smile that I put on is because I don't want to let others know and then put sympathy on me.After school, I then went to cherin house as she is the one who will have fun with me. We chat and chat, this make me relax and time files when we are having fun. The reason for me doing this is that, I want to be strong forget about the things that had happened. But still, it doesn't turn out as what I thought. This is still troubling me, I am weak in english but I had already vowed that I will make sure I do well in it. From today onwards, I am going to write extra essays for teacher to mark. I will put in all my efforts for it just like how I did for my Mt. I alreary did it in Mt and now next challenge is ENG. ORAL, P2, P1, I will get a B3 in my Os, gd luck to me ba. Sorry kuei lee and si ying for not going out with your as I really did not have the mood and I just want to stay at home and study. Jyothi, heard that you are not feeling well, don't stress out ok? take care!
