Thursday, November 18, 2010 Y 22:09
I want to be happy like nobody cares.....
I want to smile forever....
I am really really wondering whether this is the right decision... Should I go for you? Or should I not? I don't know what are you thinking and we still don't know each other well. We just met once and others was on sms.... Through sms, I realise that you are very caring and so on... But at the same time also know that you are quite a busy man with your work and stuffs. But I can understand that as at this age you will definitely have a stable job and earning $$ which is good.
But should I go for you? I am not so sure yet.... I don't know what feelings you have for me... Friend? I don't want to make a rush decision again...I felt lost and I don't know what should I do....Should I go with my heart or just let nature take its courses.... Haix... I am thinking a lot and making myself confused everytime....
爱只有简单笔画 ， 却比想象复杂！！ This sentence is so so true =( How I wish I could just follow my heart.... Sometimes after few experiences , I will wonder should I just give up? It is always giving me negative results... Till I want to give up being in a relationship.... Why must it be so unfair? Maybe till the end, I couldn't even find one that can be with me for the rest of my life....
You may tell me , I am still young , there is still a lot of time to search for the one you really love... But I don't think so... I am full of negative thoughts now.... Haix.... Nowadays, guys are more shy and always never say out what they really think.... Why is it always the girl that says all the things... It should be the other way round.... =(
Are you really the one that I am looking for?
If yes, please prove to me that you are.
I don't want to make the first step.. can you?
I want to be happy like nobody cares.....
I want to smile forever....